dailies
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
-10:51 PM
long time since i posted anything here. life's rather fine and canoeing went rather well, considering that the times i cap was reduced greatly since the time since i started. i wanna thank all the seniors for their efforts and patience in training me up. my results will be out next week, i wish to remain in nj and in canoeing. haha. anyways, it's real nice of shi wei and edmund to work out with me yesterday. yesterday i did 4 in morning, 4 during pe, 6 during lunch, 6 after study session. that's 20 for one day. somehow i had the idea of picking up the basketball after all that and we all played until 7.30pm [with a j3 pe-teacher]. oh wells, she's from netball so she's rather pro. shi wei's not bad too. his bulk can block me out! i feel so rusty after not playing for so long! after all, ive been cycling mainly, or swimming...
shi wei and edmund and me. that's the 3 muskeeters. we're real good friends. and we share secrets. oops? haha! so much for
apache and tiger. haha! that has got to be interesting! so much for "rudder faulty". oh manns, if they hear it, we're in deep shit! haha.
i feel so much weaker these days! is it due to my over-exertion or just that i skipped breakfast, and that my lunch is significantly lesser compared to the girls from my class? my dinner is my only intact meal tho, since i am doing away with supper as well.
oh wells, i am not burlumic. that's okay with me for now.
study sessions with the canoeing team [morning ones] were good time to discuss issues. oh wells, i shan't disclose it to the public.. haha. but it's getting really interesting now! :X
Saturday, January 27, 2007
-2:55 PM
It's been a while since I last updated. I seem to be very busy now-a-days.
Monday
Morning training the standard 5 rounds run and the stretching exercises. I seemed to be able to get the hang of it. I was transferred out of K2 to be doing T2. Man, that's sad. But anyway, I am okay with any boat I get as long as it is not a C craft. The C rowers seemed to be the worst people, usually leaving training with all the muscle aches and cramps. I pity them... Anyway, I was rather sleepy, so I slept during the more "boring" lectures. The Chem lecture was pathetic. The teacher was mono-tonous and she was going rather slow for an average chapter. Quite few slept. Oh wells, I'm not the only sleeper right? Haha! Water training after school was rather strenous. I took T2 with one of the female seniors. Really you know, they got that endurance to pull long distances! For me, it's slow and easy for now...
Tuesday
Started the day with 10 assisted. I feel that my arms are very very weak. Looks like I have to train alot more. I have to do my own self-training everyday! The runs was rather tiring, as I was having cough and phlegm. The teamwork and moral support given was overwhelming! With the team, I completed 5 rounds, maintaining a 2min pace per round. This is a good thing, since my runs are usually inconsistent. I had a severe headache after Pe. Guess'd I dehydrated and pressed on with the running. Took Panadol during Econs lecture, and woke up when Chem lecture ended. So much for skipping lectures! Oh man! My head was spinning so terribly that I contemplated taking another Panadol down. So much for that. Pressed on and went for training after school. I felt so much better after that. Slept like a pig when i got home, and I had dinner only at midnight...
Wednesday
My arms are aching! They feel so stiff! I can hardly move them! Somehow I feel that I'm losing my strength today. I need a longer time to recuperate! Oh man. Even so, I want to press on. To be stronger and fitter than before. I want to change myself. For that, a price had to be paid. I ran. And my illness got worse. I was wheezing and my breathing became inconsistent. For the first time, I feel my heart hurt before my leg muscles. Has something gone wrong? Training after school was tiring. Imagine canoeing with arms that are so stiff, they're bent! I used full arm strength for the 10km course. I felt weak and all. Warm-down. Had a super late dinner as well
Thursday
Long day. Ran 9-10 rounds in the morning. I was almost dead. My timing per round increased from 2 secs to 3secs. I am so embarassed for myself. So much for the field being wet and all... Fell asleep during lecture again because the lecturer was droning away.. and it sounded like a lullalby. Training after school was okay. Took T2 with Ivan. I rode in C style. That's when my legs felt the pain. So much for complaining about the upper 1/2 of my body aching. Now my bottom 1/2 hurts... Slept tll morning after training. Skipped breakfast and dinner. Hungry...
Friday
The last day of the week. Everyone's feeling happy knowing that the long-awaited weekend is finally here! Haha! I feel so revived! Morning ran with Lin Di and Jas. They are good and consistent runners.! It will take me a long time to get used to such things. Oh wells. Stayed back in school to revised.
I'm tired now! Gonna sleep...
Monday, January 22, 2007
-10:32 PM
There's a new rule put forth in one-voice. Hmm...
Only that time will tell.
CCA is getting tougher by the minute. For me, I feel that I'm getting weaker day by day. Hmm... Is it that I lack that endurance, or is it that I am degenerating?
School's fine. Though I am rather stressed that the RESULTS will be out in the near future. I'm rather anxious, and scared. There's that 'what if' factor that plagued me. Oh wells, what's done is done...
Saturday, January 20, 2007
-2:36 PM
School has been tiring and rather stressful for me. I'm the Math Rep. YES, THE MATH REP. I thought that I could just slack and hide in my shell as usual, but this time round no one volunteered, so I just took up the post. I did not know what was in store for me. So far, I have not gotten any shit yet, so I'm rather happy with myself. Homework level has increased significantly.
Revision is also very tough. Imagine them finishing 1 Chem, 1 Phy, 1 Math chapter this week! Imagine all that reision of the newer conepts! I was sinking under the sea of homework. Everyday seemed to send forth new torrents that swept me away from my goal - completion of homework and revision. I can't seem to grasp the concept of trigo. Maybe I need more time. I'd rather learn through self-discovery rather than others teaching me. It takes longer, but in that way I'll remember for a long time to come...
Anyway, my Chem teacher sucks to the core. Sarcastic old witch. I'm rather kind already. At least I didn't replace the 'W' with a 'B'. Chem tutorials did not even seem fun at all... She may be able to explain the concepts, but did not inject much fun into the lessons!
Friday was a rush for me. I had to go training after school, then rush to meet LG for seminar at St Andrew's Cathedral. Imagine rushing from Macritchie reservoir to the heart of town! The train ride took it's toll on my vitality and i snoozed...
For most of my time in school, I would usually spend it in hibernation. Guess I am not used to school stress and all...
Stoning -> rocking -> fossilized [Bosty's blog]
Monday, January 15, 2007
-11:29 PM
Shall post on my first day of lessons another day. For now, I have one aim. That is to get my weight below 70. That's all for today.
PS : Congrats to Faith for doing well in her class test!
Sunday, January 14, 2007
-10:25 PM
Reached the venue late for the roadrun. Traffic was rather slow moving. It's not that I woke up late, but dragged too long in the toilet. After all, music is rather distracting, especially with songs such as "night of fire", I soon found myself head-shaking and what-have-you. Oh wells, half an hour spent in there.
Then, I did not know the OG that well enough, so did not speak up much. Pasir Ris felt
deja-vu. After all, I know the place rather well. Our first clue was spider web, so I conveniently boarded 403 with the rest and we went there. Presto! In a snap, everyone scrambled up the web and we had our pictures taken. I stayed at the lower half as I'm afraid of heights. It did not help that the whole structure was meant to shake and all...
Our second clue was placed wrongly, and we searched the wrong place, wasting precious time and all. After all, the STAR on the map was placed so big that it covered a large area of the park in reality. Then on, I became tour guide for Pasir Ris.
Lunch was at Macs, since the food court closed due to renovation works. Macs was fattening! I think that I have to cycle and swim more to burn off all those extra fats so that I do not inflate myself again. Si Hao's slimming down as well. For me, I am rather extreme-ist, taking only 2 meals a day.
TO ALL : I AM NOT ANEROXIC [WHICHEVER WAY IT'SPELT]
Reached Woodlands at late noon. Played the stations there for only 20minutes, then we all had to return to school. I was rather tired. Wanted to sleep on the train, but somehow just couldn't. And some people thought I was "metrosexual" ?
RATIONALE : LIP BALM IN MY PENCIL CASE
MY DEFENSE : MY LIPS CRACK ALL THE TIME
So much for that.
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Friday
Final day of orientation!
I was rather sad as the fun filled week is coming to an end, and that long dreary lessons are soon going to fill my timetable. I guess I contradict myself sometimes don't I? [read earlier posts] The war games was a disappointment as the weather was wet. Instead of playing 3hours, each house is only allowed 30minutes [15 per 1/2 house]. This was depressing. I turned round and sighed. So much for this anti-climax! Nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves.
Edmund's group was screwed [Ingstad first half]. [From him : ] There's a sngs girl who punched a guy in his stomach for throwing a waterbomb at her.
So much for that level of immaturity.
Wet blanket!
Anyway, we had an inter-clan dance competition. Ingstad wasn't in the top3! Boo-boo :(
We had fellowship within our orientation group and then met our civics tutor. Shan't elaborate on this...
Anyway, the BIGGEST FUN BEGAN AT NIGHT! It started with the catholic high guys tau-pok-ing another one of us. [Forgot the name...] And cake fight with Wen Hao's ice-cream cake. Then the dance party was the soul-rocker! S20 GROOVED AND ROCKED! THE PLACE WAS LIKE A DISCO, WITH ALL THE FLASHING LIGHTS AND ALL!
Too bad they got no techno!
I WAS HIGH! MAN! I SANG CATHOLIC HIGH'S SCHOOL SONG WITH ROY, CHIEN HAO, AND THE REST ON THEIR WAY TO THE BUS STOP. WE DID THE SCHOOL PLEDGE AS WELL! AND REPEATED THE SCHOOL SONG! YAY!
Desmond and Damien crashed the party! Fellow greenpants!
Slept late because I overslept and took the bus to Senkang instead of getting off at Serangoon. ZZZ
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Canoeing orientation is good! Fun! Lazy to blog already!
Edmund's co canoe-ist, "That guy may be fast, but he's going off course!"
Rofl.
Dinner for Ingstad clan was great! Talked much nonsense there.
Pool after that. Sent Shu Jun home. Then zonked out on the train back. Chuch later, got filming to do.. I'm visualising the storyboard!
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Nearly dozed off in the long long sermon... Wanting to return to la-la-land. After all, after orientation , the rest of the things just feels mundane. Filming was great, though I edited the action big time due to area constraints and so on. It was raining, so I couldn't do much and the mainstream service has just been released. It's crowded! And I had to make do with the youth lounge and all!
Let's see how I edit. It's all in my hands! All in my hands! Stress! Argh!
Thursday, January 11, 2007
-10:54 PM
I've changed.. from a madman in the night.. to a quiet boy in the day...
Nah.. I'm not emo-ing..
I'm just tired...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
-8:28 PM
Today was station games! xD
It started real bad, with me waking up late and meeting Wai Kit late. He's really good in chinese chess, being able to forsee my moves. Probably it's the training he's received at the chess club...
Oh wells, looks like I gotta improve my skills...
Anyway, station games was rather fun, though we lost practically every match due to the lack of teamwork. Everyone was foreign to each other, so we hardly interacted. Maybe it's only the guys who talked, thanks to my super lame jokes and
interesting story of Catholic High and life in a guys' school.
The girls, probably the RV people stuck with each other, while the rest were left like electrons orbiting a nucleus...
Anyway, there was fellowship and bonding. Screaming and shouting included.... The highlight of the station games was the handicapped one, where I piggy-back someone on my back. There's the lame, the mute, the blind and the normal. The normal and the mute had to help the lame and the blind. The blind had to be led through, while the lame had to be carried or wheelbarrowed. Si Hao weighs 0.1 tonnes, and 8 team members carried him. Unluckily, we had not enough stamina and dropped him at the staircase. It was really comical seeing him lying spread-eagled over 6 steps. It seemed
cute? Oh wells, I shan't be that bad and poke fun at him.. It's REAL PAINFUL after all...
At another station, I had to take a bite out a floating apple, and use my mouth to get M&Ms from flour with my wet face [after dunking for apple]. Ew! That feeling of flour in your mouth ain't good! And I had to scrape away bits from in between my teeth!
What a experience!
Anyway, the mass dance became 'mess dance'. We completed 'we're all in this together' and started on 'public affair'. We were all packed into the gym, which meant that movement would be limited. Futhermore, the whole place turned into a suana... Hot hot hot!
My partner changed [ytd's one was from another class]. Erm, today's dance partner was rather shy, mixing around with people only from her school. Lol. Edmund faced the same problem with his as well... Anyway, I think my partner is rather cute! Oops? :X
Let's see who I'll get tomorrow when people start getting mixd up and our partners change!
Oh wells, there's the roadrun tomorrow, with station games ALL OVER SINGAPORE! Maybe there's where I'll get my idea from to organise my station for the band1 fellowship event! Wahaha!
And oh, my first stop is in PASIR RIS AT 8:30AM! BACK INTO THE PLACE WHERE I SPENT MY CHILDHOOD...Nostalgia~
Monday, January 08, 2007
-7:09 PM
Today marks the first day of orientation! Yay-ness!
Reached school at 6.30am [Apparently traffic was unusually smooth on the road], and waited patiently for the grouping results to be out. [New grouping because we are sorted accordingly to our subject combinations]
It was rather sad as we all split groups... The fun and fellowship that we've had in the past 3 days were gone... Sob sob. But had to look forward and progress, moving on. Assembly started with the introduction of the ODYSSEY story, which showcased the 6 different clans. I can't say that the storyline was interesting, but at least the dance was! The dance was hot! Every clan had their own dance, and practically they were doing all sorts of dance, from 'ballet' to modern day 'hip hop'. Ain't it cool?
[Edmund was busy staring at the female dancers...]
Even though, I can't deny the fact that they are hot... :XWe were shown the 3 mass dances that we would be practicing for Friday night. Gosh, I was like.. "Oh my 天!" They seem complicated!
Anyway, we were broken up into our new OGs for ice-breakers. The new OG seemed stone-y. I was like.. 'huh? this cannot be!' The whole group was literally quiet and all, a stark contrast to the group that I had last week.
I seriously prefer last week's group...
Anyway, we had mass dance later. It is the highlight of this orientation. Had a lot of fun there, though it seemed weird that I had to hold a girl's hand and allow her to spin during the dance. It felt rather akward for me, since I was rather used to a all guys' environment.
After a while, it did not feel weird... Then came the portion that she has to hold onto my back and jump up. The most comical line was when she asked, "Is it pain?"
I'm not made of paper you know!
It wasn't pain of course because she's not that heavy [think Jacko's build].
It went fine and was real good, though people like me were really lost and all!
MASS DANCE F.T.W!
Sunday, January 07, 2007
-10:18 PM
TRY THIS!
-Take out a calculator and follow these simple steps
- Key in the first four digits of your handphone number [excluding area code]
- Multiply by 80
- Add 1
- Multiply by 250
- Add the last 4 digits of your handphone number
- Add the last 4 digits of your handphone number again
- Subtract 250
- Divide answer by 2
DO YOU RECOGNISE THE ANSWER?
-9:11 PM
Somehow, something in me just went wrong. The bad memories, those which I had strung away, are arising. Meet my dark side...
Saturday, January 06, 2007
-12:39 PM
Today was the final day of the administrative segment of the orientation... The fun and games will start rolling in next week... Anyway, today was a rather interesting day. Played lots of games and watching my group members get saboh-ed!
Daniel was being proposed to by a girl from my group [pai-seh forget name though she told me a zillion times] The girl kneeled down and went...
"Would you marry me?"
"Erm... NO?"
[girl asks again]
"For how long?"
(facepalm 100X)
That got the whole group cracked up. CCA fair was the main highlight of the whole event. The canoeing team ran after us throughout the whole school. I ran into them like... 10 times? They keep asking me to join...
So annoying :(Contemplating : Strategic games/Air rifle/Math Society
Thanks to Eugene... he got me, himself and Tiong Hui going to western dance auditions this coming Thursday. So much for crapping with them...
My poor OGL was trying to get me to try out floorball. Unfortunately, I had seen enough at Cat High [blood+gore] to want take it up again in JC.
What should I take up?
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Due to dinner with OG, I couldn't attend LG. Sorry to Greg who would feel so
lonely in church...
Thursday, January 04, 2007
-9:52 PM
Today is the 2nd day of my orientation at NJC. I can't say that it is fun, because we're still going through all the administration stuff and all... School began at 8.30am though! So the bus ride there was rather peaceful, other than the DRASTIC TRAFFIC JAM AT ANG MO KIO! The traffic jam there was rather bad, because of the number of commuters on the road, the width of the road, and the numerous traffic lights scattered all around...
I had to attend introductory lessons that are catered to help the us get an abstract idea of which areas of the subject would be covered. I was rather interested by the Geography one, until I heard that the marking criteria, which would include use of good english, of which, i do not possess. It is said that we need to write argumentative essays and the precise terminology must be used. It sounds dry and all. Many were rather put off by this fact. I was too. I would have seriously considered Geography if no for this factor. The math lesson was rather interesting. Especially the fact that we would be learning more into the A. Math topics. It seemed fun, and I'm looking forward to it. So much for that.
Edmund woke me up during the Chemistry introductory lesson. Apparently the lecturer was long-winded, and the day had been long.. And bored us out of our guts. I played with Edmund's phone to amuse myself and all, and luckily went unnoticed. Physics lecture was rather interesting as well. With all those new topics, I can't wait! Haha. Wai Kit was rather excited when the teacher introduced the topic on Nuclear Physics. I mean, who wouldn't?
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Shall blog about yesterday's happenings.
It was my first day at a new school. I wondered how many I would know there. I am so not used to attending new places.I was rather, apprehensive and all. Questions flooded my mind on whether I could get used to the new environments and all, and if I would be able to meet any friends and get accustomed to the lessons.
I guess that my fears were mounting when I stepped into the school gates.... I met a few familliar faces [Wai Kit, Roy Ang, Su Kiat] on the bus. Haha! Talking to Su Kiat helped to remove some of the questions that I had. I felt more at ease. Oh well. We accidentally stepped into NYGH's gate by mistake. It's not our fault that we were in a rush and that the gates are located side by side. It was rather embarassing for us. Luckily we had only taken one foot in when Su Kiat pointed it out and saved us from embarassment. It seemed rather humorous though [now at least].*
*Edmund, I did not step in there on PURPOSE!
I was allocated to orientation group 5. I was there all alone.. surrounded with girls. Literally surrounded. I felt a little uneasy since I am so accustomed to an all guys surroundings. It did not help much that my OGL [orientation group leaders] were mainly females, other than one guy. the number of guys in the group were also relatively lesser than the amount of females, making me feel more uneasy when talking to them.
Andrew was surprising in my oriantation group. Finally someone that I know! It was indeed reassuring to find someone you know in your orientation group. Too bad he came late... and I thought that I was the only guy in the group... Alas! The amount of Catholic High guys there were rather less. [Many went to VJ. I would too, if not for the long travelling time ): ] Anyway, I made friends in the group. There was Marcus, Timothy [RV], Timothy, Wei Ren... I think that I am getting more accustomed to the life there. Then the girls were mainly from an all girls environment, so there was hardly any interaction between us. So it's the guys to one side, and the girls at one side... The OGL remarked us as... anti-socials? Haha! The OGLs played some games with us, for us to familliarize with one anothers. It seemed rather weird because the girls were always giggling and all, which seemed rather disturbing...
Anyway, the introductory lessons were rather dry. I conveniently zonked out at some corner of the lecture hall. It was such a long day... And I could not resist the cold air conditioning... my eyelids thus grew heavier by the minute... until I slumped into my schoolbag. That looked so un-glam! And probably I looked like an ass. I thought that it was weird to be falling asleep, since this is a co-ed environment. However, the guys are not the only ones who are dozing off as well...
:X
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I wonder how the others are doing in other jcs. Calvin seemed to be having fun at AC. He said that the people there are rather nice and friendly, which is rather contrary to the image I had of them... Oh wells...
I wanted to go there at first, but it was too far and all... Let's pray that after the release of the O levels results, I can stay in there!
Monday, January 01, 2007
-10:23 PM
"It's our strength, not our weakness that scares us. Man's greatest fear is to be powerful beyond measure..."
-10:16 PM
"Looking down on others would only set the stage for your nightmare"
"Tolerance is never a sign of weakness"
"Over-confidence is a mirrior of lies"
-10:08 PM
Happy new year to one and all....
The past year has indeed been interesting for me, with so many events happening at church and in school..
Looking back, I realised how much I have changed since the start of the year. At the start, when I joined one-voice, I was still quite new to the band and all. Though I know 1/2 of the band members there, I was close to only a few. Close, meaning
really close . That kind of close where secrets and problems can be shared with. As the year went by, I became more outspoken. Sometimes,
too outspoken, which sparked the jumping incident. Well, from there I began to exercise more self control on talking about sensitive issues and all. I feel that we have grown as a band and all, being more clsoer together and having more cohesion. Things have certainly taken a change for the better since the start of my service in one voice...
The youth ministry [currently called YMPACT] has showen gradual increase in strength. This means that God is at work here, bringing people to Christ through us church go-ers. The spirituality has also been further increased through camps [church camp and youth camp]. This would really set the stage for the "year of evangelism" this year where we are going to focus on evangelistic outreach to the community.
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In school, I became a person who was not that true to myself. At the start of the year, I was flunking subjects. It was like my results were
extreme-ist. The higher ones being
really high, and the lower ones being
really low. This was a terrible inequality. I had to slug it out in order to get my grades alive and kicking. Then after, I moved onto scoring, after my subjects have passed. It was a hard time for me, as it's my few fails in secondary school life. At that point of time, I got into depression and my self-esteem was severely affected. It did not help that my O levels chinese grade was pathetic. Then after, I completely lost it. I began self-psycho-ing myself that I'm not cut out for studies and all. And that, when posted onto my blog, caused certain disputes.
I feel that my results are bad. People may agrue about it, but "bad" itself is a very subjective word. My "bad" may not be other's "bad" . Hence, I had a rather hard time trying to explain to others about it. And most of the times, people do not get it.
My spirituality has changed for the better when I was part of CF [christian fellowship] in school. We're not an official school-endorsed community, but just a small group that meets up during the 2nd recess to pray and sing praises to God.
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My resolutions for this year
- Be more tidy
- Be more hardworking academically
- Be more tolerant against people's nonsense [I'm rather tolerant already]
- Be more active in church
- Sing better [as a vocailst and a worshipper of God]
- Dedication to practicing my guitar [chord changes]
- Exercise more frequently
- Do quiet time more regularly
- Attend church on time [sleeping early the night before]
- Be a better person [one who can shine the light of Christ upon others]