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Sunday, February 26, 2006
-1:00 AM
this term is well --- screwed. reason being -- careless and lazyness [i tink i'm a sore ass]
confessions : i din study :P - physics i missed out one whole chapter [static e.] and well..haha..failed..that paper itself-chemistry could haf scraped an A.. but..well..why i din see qn properly..got 3 for it overall-emath i could haf hit 90 [my target]. but well..got only 88-amath i got 23/30. lost 4 marks due to carelessness. 4got to label graph -2 and read value of S wrongly -1..calculation mistake -1-history elect. well..nothing to say. missed out 2 pts from source -2marks. 18/20-s.s. brain freeze [lol!] din study!! 12/25-geog ::2nd test on mon:: 1st test 13.5/25languages are unknown currently. most likely i went KABOOM!!i din noe that juz by paying attention to the lesson itself..it can almost replace the time spent revising for it..haha..since now i know where i stand..well..guess its time to place more emphasis on those weaker subjects..haha.. if i had studied..well..heh..thats another story :)din noe that other who put in their full only got the same results as me :) [oh no!! complacency is settin in]mr quay was so hurt when he handed me my physics paper.
sobs [
lol] he told me to study harder [
lol again!!] i guess i will..thats is..until prelims 1 approaches [
there are 3 prelims this year!!]
my math teacher was disappointed with my amath result..[
told you alreadi..tok tok tok in class huh? now you can see the result!!] well..haha..that one..erm..lolz
my cl teacher told me that i SCREWED THE RETEST!! she was like :"ming kun..wo quan ni fang qi gao ji hua wen. zhi yang hui dui ni bi jiao hao yi dian..*" i was disappointed like crazy lahh..go back class got suaned again..feel sour all over..
*"clayton, i recommend that you drop higher chinese. in this way, it will be better for you"
final decision : carry on
coz..erm..haha..even my senior chinese no good can get b3 for hcl..thats 2 bonus pts, and 1 yr no cl [in jc] .. well..he told me to press on ..
odds are like..well.. 50% passed and 20%distinction ..well..but i believe that i will survive [kinda stubborn of me ain't it?]
i do not believe in miracles..neither do i believe in bad luck..well..lolx..i am gonna tell her on monday that i'm staying at all costs.
ppl..do support my decision :)
note : :p ivan , if yo are reading this, i believe that you should not go into FTM [full time mugging] or wad i call IMP [intensive mugging programme] currently unless your endurance is that of wai chuan's..well..cuz tested last yr..3 terms to burnout..cooldown rate is too long and distastrous [you saw wad happened to me right?] you can try..coz i tink it works differently for other ppl..well..but this is mi opinion lahh
i know not why, but i always think that i look like shit. my face sux. my looks sux. my face looks screwed.i feel that my face is wrong.i feel sorry for myself whenever i look into the mirror.i feel dejected.i feel like i am scarred for life.can someone tell me what to do or push a blade thru me?
Thursday, February 23, 2006
-8:50 AM
lord, i would like to thank you for deflating my pride,allowing me to know where i had gone wrong in the last 5 months,and to get to know you better .
thanks again for allowing me to know where i haf gone wrong,
as in why i always stutter..
amenhaiz..
things i school turning out to be rotten..
1st i failed cl..woth 90% of the class..haha..then physics..i failed too..coz 4got got static e. and got killed at the definitions and explanations portion..
math results is fine..erm..yah..fine..
i realised that i can actually speak properly if i try to and go less faster then usual!! i nid more confidence in myself.
going by rachel's definition of "slow n dumb"..well..i think i am falling into that category...for this term at least..
I AM CURRENTLY VERY FLAT-TONED..ANY1 GOT A SOLUTION TO THAT?
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
-8:27 AM
hey hey..dunno y i got this feeling muz post again..hawhaw
math got a lot of ppl muz come for remedial..well..haha..CHEN XIAO is listed also!! haha..that guy ah..1st guy to hit 8pts last yr for term 1..well..8 without bonus..that became my prime target..
slowly when the class is gaining in strength..he depreciated..well..until this deplorable state..
life is juz full of unexpected things eh?IVAN HENG - YOU WANT TRY AND BE "GOD-LIKE"..YOU WILL DESTROY URSELF WITH YOUR OWN PRIDE
i am not kidding..haha..take me on..you saw wad happened last yr okay?
-8:20 AM
monday//
i could haf said that i fasted..lol..
breakfast at 6am..no lunch due to preparation for cl test [ that was an unexpected test xD luckily i had my cl dict at that time :) ]
the test is mainly essay writing..well..i scared coz there are no guidelines..free marking..subject to the teacher's mood :(
stress lahh..
tuesday//
lazy morning..listen to principal crap on the fact that we are going to haf 3 prelims this year..
hope i can stiu go fer FOPwell..lolx..got s-c-r-e-w-e-d after recess...mrs tan tot i talking..well..i wasn't ..and got screwed all the same..
mrs toh spotted the wrong guy..and i haf to pay the "price"..well..sitting at the front sure is kinda warm - no fan!!
well.. i think thats all..
Monday, February 20, 2006
-7:10 AM
PRAYER POINTERS FOR THE WEEK:
-CL TEST THAT I MAY GET A1 OR 2 TO REMAIN IN HCL STREAM
-ALL OF US CAN DO QT DAILY/REGULARLY
-NOT BEING A "SUNDAY-CHRISTIAN"
saturday// tiring after tuition..hawhaw..went for 1-v..haha..a bit better then normal (opps..my nose juz grew longer..) .. stiu flat-toned..guess i muz prac more..common test juz ended..cl teacher bugging me for a week already..
drop cl, drop cl..pls lah..i know how to make my decisions..SO I WILL GO FOR THE TEST..commit that to God..haha..well..kenneth did not come..daniel came late..lols..
dinner was eaten in silent..well..
sunday//woke up late..7.30am..suppossed to wake up 1hr earlier..but my dad turned off my alarm clock..haiz..well..took a 5-min shower instead of the usual 15~20 min one..sianz..rushed down..left the house at 7.48am..then well..unexpectedly..missed bus 81..coz bus 25 is slow..waited and waited..but the Lord is kind, He is faithful..and the next one came shortly..haha..
reached church at 8.30am..yayness!!
camera duty for me..coz ben came late..well..rahhs..i am like..so shagg yet muz do duty..expecting it to be me and leon's day off..haha..propped the cam on a table today..to prevent ppl's head..haha..
the new cam is so cool..writes the data straight onto a dvd !!spotted ben later..told me he 4got..well..eeps..
next week he doing..so that i can take that matter off my mind and get on with the sec1 welcome thingy..practically almost, if not on all, sundays i got something to do..haha..
maurice is a good speaker..dunno y ppl like gideon can dun listen..well..i am also taking some sermon notes..a new practice for me *clap clap*.. pastor is quite a friendly guy..not the usual steorotyped view that pastors are imposing people who catch ppl for councilling..haha
maurice's talk on temptations is great lahh..ralph in small grp added on with the verse :
1cor 10:13..hahas..
tired..went for sec1 w.t meeting later..ben crashed the mic..lols..t0ld him dun play liao..luckily the mic neva slip from the stand..coz when it does *shudders to think*.. the mic will be permanently damaged if its bad..
thank God the mic is working fine after that..haha..i hope to see the camera crew grow in strength..coz now only got 2 people..haha..
also pity bertrand's tech team..well..can say that there is a "brain drain" .. wif ppl like :
Leon - photography club in school. good photographer with skills in editing photos(photoshop),making videos(??)
Me(bleahh)- blogging (lol!), editing photos(photoshop), making videos(window movie maker), ave photography,
Leon's fren-marcomedia fireworks n dreamweaver are his trade (nid i say more?)
n i believe there's many more of such "hidden ppl"..haha..
i din noe that i can make an okay video..bertrand said it..well..haha..brain drain is reaally baad..i can almost feel bertrand going "nnnnnooooooooooo"haha..guess i am being lame//
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
-9:27 AM
THE SCHOOL WANTS ME TO DROP.
THIS IS SUCH A HAPPY VD
IF I DROP..
-PARENTS DISALLOW ME GO FER 1-VOICE
-ALL OUTINGS ARE CANCELLED
-LESS INVOLVEMENT IN CHURCH AND SCHOOL ACTIVITIES
-TIGHTER REIN BY PARENTS
-WORSE COME TO WORSE,MAY NOT EVEN BE ATTENDING CHURCH TILL THE END OF O'S
IF I DUN..
-SCHOOL WILL STILL FORCE YOU TO DROP
-NO POINT STAYING ON
I do respect Charlotte's and Rachel's opinion that i shouldn't drop, since this is my last year. Big thanks to you all!!
However, nck and bean says that change the b3 t an a1, its worth it..
I AM CONFUSED. B3 NOT SUPPOSSED TO DROP CHINESE WAN
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
-9:33 AM
sunday//
feeling happy yet sad..erm..outta pitch again at 1-v prac last nite..looks like i need more practice..i got a 3 for cl..thats sad too..happy..erm..matthew didn't do anythin stupid at lunch..(remember e other time)..well..KW n bros were slacking..din go fer ym..haha..
monday//
Bertrand said that my TOFU video is nice..since he said it..i will take his n shaun's word for it..
psst : that din take more than 45 mins :)
bert actually wanted me to join communications team as a video person..well..haha..lol..but i in 1 ministry liao..sry bert :(
tired..uber tired..no strength left in me..well..me chinese teacher says that she reccomend that i drop hcl..help myself..
my point is : if i pass hcl at the end of the year, that means no cl for the rest of mi life! ain't that helping me more?well..i din tell her that..told her that i realli wanna stay..then she crap and crap me and honky tonky too..lol..
but if i dun sign e form..haha..*evil grins*..actually the sch dun haf a say in this..coz its our future..our stuff..our business..STAY OUTTA IT!!OTHER SCH C6 AND BELOW ONLY NEED TO DROP..Y YOU SO EXTRA?! B3 IS A DECENT SCORE!!physics is as boring as usual..and michelle fell asleep..haha..lol..he was leaning against the window..erm...kok kok quay wasn't exactly happy..
note : our sch flunked..our sch flunked..no 1/2 day.. no full day off..lost to schools like st nicks, cedar g. and other..from band 1 to band 3..hcl the distinct rate same as kranji sec..lol..looks like we need a major makeover.
PLS LAHH..PL HAS FULL DAY OFF, ST NIC MOST PROB 1/2 DAY..AND WE?! NOTHING!!
the prelims this year will confirm be a killer..coz last yr ppl can get 8 for prelims and 18 for o's
may God bless me and allow my cl teacher allow me to stay in hcl..ppl pray for me n my decision okay?*peeps,pls post your comments on my tagboard okay?
Saturday, February 11, 2006
-2:16 PM
haiz..get results so sad..got a b3..haiz..
luckily i dun haf 2 drop out of higher chinese
..(thanks to yuan + God's grace)..well..she said that her classes no one dropped out..of hcl..thats good news..
well..i'm feeling the blues..erm..dejected..
kelvin says its a test of faith coz some other christians also flunked..well guess i am not e only onr put through this..
juz hope that my mum dun stop me from going to one-voice practice..otherwise i really will go bonkers..
life is all about worshipping Christ right?
juz read the 1st few paragraphs of Job..feeling mucha better lorrs
Friday, February 10, 2006
-7:56 AM
hey hey..updating..
wednesday//the coolest assembly eva...the attitude rock band made the discipline teachers look like fools :p
"dun listen to them..we rock and they SUCK""i know why you all are sitting down..its the fault of that guy in the middle right?"lolx..
thursday//haiz..sian..hcl teacher juz reminded us got receive papers tomolo..12noon exactly in the auditorium..stress stress stress..look at the malaysian scholars..they also got white strands of hair like us..is that cool or wad?
i dun wanna drop hcl..muz pray pray pray..haha..very stressed..yet scared..yet anxious..the anticipated release of the results r simply..arrgghh..coz if muz drop..
its something like being banished to "hell"..coz at this point of time no teacher will take you..and you are to survive on your own until the o's..so that's y i scared..
in dire need of prayer support..thx a lot//12noon cl results out liao
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
-1:14 PM
Once Again
Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times I've wondered at Your gift of life
And I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again
And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life
Now You are exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I marvel at Your saving grace
And I'm full of praise once again
I'm full of praise once again
Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross, my Friend
i think that this is a very very good song..it really summarises what most people (and i) feel about the "solemn" worship usually on the last night of church camps..well..i dun think that words can express how i feel on those events;
i think that in this time of the year..most of us are usually tied-up with stuff and usually forget to read the bible..well..the best way is to put your bible on your pillow..that way confirm wun 4get one..haha..
if you see someone with a bump at the back of his/her head, that means that poor person was so tired and 4got about the bible!!
hey guys..if in need of any prayer support or having some problems can find me..well..lending a hearing ear..tho i may not haf the solutions to all problems..
well..can you guys help me pray for this friday's release of o's cl results such that i do not haf to drop hcl? thx a lot
-12:48 PM
ANNOUNCEMENT : -WHO IS INTERESTED IN CAMERA DUTY ON SUNDAYS?PLS TELL ME OK?o's results out this friday..in nid of prayer support..hey hey..long time never update liao..haiz..
saturday//erm..morning wake up so tired..went for physics tuition..i feel very very sad lahh..my phone memory card corrupted..then all my songs n vids gone..worse stiu..my com's hard disk also corrupted..then i really lost everything..4+ gb of songs..2 gb of videos (mostly mtvs)..and about 30+ mb worth of pics..lolx..
went for 1-v practice later..at the beginning i tot i was late..(sam told mi n daniel to come at 5.30pm for "remedial")..saw ppl in there..Daniel was like suddenly mood-swing..stopped talking and did nothing..well..as the practice went on..he was much much more better..
bible study that night was okay..with marcus leading..haha..then later got practice..well..daryl said i and daniel have improved..well..erm..i think..nice of him to encourage us..but i stiu feel sucky about being somewhat tone-deaf and all..unable to sing properly..i seriously feel that i haf to practice..hahax..
i am stiu off..either that or low volume..my self-confidence needs a boost..went for supper with them..haha..went daniels (2 of 'em) were doing their "usual practice"..well..i told sam not to look..well..tried covering her line of sight..haha..well..she say that she die die muz see..so..haha..haiz..post the pics another day..it kills my appetite..
would like to thank amelia for keeping me in prayer :)
sunday//woke up at 6.45am to get prepared for church..today not so rush coz i didn't haf to beet daniel for breakfast..haha..he has to buy balloons for eunice's birthday..haha..DANIEL?!SHOP-AND-SAVE DUN SELL BALLOONS? i told him liao..then lolx..he dun belief..then went there at 7.30am..well..stiu dun haf..haha..he went to church..with the balloons from 7-11..
he stiu having mood swings..i met pastor outside the aldersgate hall..well..he told me to use tripod coz he got SEASICK..well..met denver who passed me his super-uber steady tripod to use..then 9am came..worship started..well..the clock is ticking..
9.10am..
9.15am..
9.30am..
i am getting kinda worried...wad if the pastor doesn't come with the camera? then at that time..i was called to the back..wha..met augustine there..haha..used his instead of the pastor's camera..coz erm..pastor's camera screen got problem...haha..there is a greenish tinge..
shaun coached me on how to operate it well..haha..zooming in n stuff like that..
he said..there are going to be 4 cameras in the new chapel?! i was like..ookkaayyss..well..
on another note..i feel that i haf to concentrate on one thing at a time..well..haha..sec-1 welcome team and camera duty juz dun mix..coz..well..quite pressed for time..i thinking of getting people together..haha..
pastor say one hor..to man the camera..haha..
there are promising people in the ym..like the sec-2 leon..he is from that cca one n haf experience..far more than i would get..haha..
i am trying to get people to take up camera duty..so far only leon and me..may ask the seniors like shaun sng or the one-v PA crew people..coz they are in PA mahh..monday//so tired..haha..yet to happy :)
i din noe that chee yann plays a big part in his church..haha..being in charge of the sunday school worship and all..haha..he sure is good..being gifted both academically yet musically..well..haha.. wish i could be like him :p
dun noe joe en is from debate..rahhs..my junior being looked down there and not sent for competition coz he is soft spoken..well..that is the debate's business..not mine..haha..i haf no part in this..haha..guess i will ensure that he does all he can in the 1st CCA lahh..(IT CLUB)..
IF YOU GUYS ALL DUN NOE, I DID THE BANNER HANGING OUTSIDE THE LABwell..something to share :
coming down from the canteen..the primary school boys were playing soccer there..well..they missed and the ball rolled towards me..i went to whack the ball..and it hit ms.leong's leg..the irony is that the primary school children got scolded!!lolx..PS : -Ryan..plans will be out in 2 weeks' time..coz needs lots of consideration and i got CT..sry for delay ah..
Thursday, February 02, 2006
-11:40 AM
breaking free..someone please tell me what to do..haiz..results r going to be out soon..i dunno wad to do if i got kicked out of higher chinese stream..in the last year some more..haiz..6th feb results out liao..dotz dotz dotz..