Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
who am i
Name: Clayton Chew Ming Koon
Current age: 17
School: National Junior College
Birthday: 15 July 1990
Msn : claytoncmk@hotmail.com
dailies
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
-9:00 AM
HCL was bad. Real bad, if you'd ask me. My good ol' bud from China said that the essay component was bad. [Who don't?]. Wasted summary - missed out one line -.- [1 summary point gone]
PDA = public display of affection IN CHINESE = NAN NAN NU NU DONG LAI DONG QU
my second paragraph sounds more like the couples are having sex on the train -.-
~
Guess things are turning against me.
In the drawing of the sine curve, there's a peak followed by a trough. I guess my peak would be this prelim, and the O's the trough.
Can I sustain?
OR IS THIS THE END?
Saturday, October 28, 2006
-4:45 PM
Revision process : Slow Accomplished : Nothing Progress since Prelim 3 : Neglible
I guess, at this rate, I am gonna flunk so badly that even ITE wouldn't want me.
Friday, October 27, 2006
-1:37 PM
Physics practical - Practically screwed.
4 Physics teacher - 3 said curves, 1 said straignt line
I drew a straight line. Well, it's over for now [Or what one PERSON in class insisted that it is]. I can't much be bothered by it. What's done, it's done. No turning back. It seems almost like a roller-coaster ride.
How?
Wanted to watch DOA after prac, but prac ended late, and there's none showing at Bishan, so I stayed in class and slacked.
Note : Really you know, if the O's are this screwed, then I guess that even the polytechnics would not want me.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
-3:35 PM
Oh, did I mention that High School Musical is a nice movie?
-12:35 PM
Another unproductive day spent tying up the loose ends. Have to start on Social Studies soon, before it dies on me like what happened this prelims.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
-5:39 PM
Random# 5 : Fairytales
What's the difference between ang-mor and Hokkien fairy tales?
Ang-mor fairy tales begin with: "Once upon a time..."
Hokkien fairy tales begin with: "Lim Peh ka li kong..."
-5:38 PM
Random#4 : B-B-Bustard!
Little Ah Seng had a severe stutter, but his mother felt he had to learn to fend for himself. So on the first day of school, she made him take the bus on his own.
"It's very easy," she told him. "When you board the bus, just tell the driver: Ah Chek, wah ai kee Tanglin Halt. (I want to go to Tanglin Halt)."
The next day, Ah Seng boarded the bus and told the bus driver: "A-a-ah Ch-ch-chek! W-w-wah ai k-k-kee T-Tanglin H-h-halt!"However, the bus driver slapped Ah Seng in response.
Ah Seng was shocked, but the next day it happened again. Ah Seng boarded the bus and saw it was the same bus driver.Ah Seng again told him: "A-a-ah Ch-ch-chek! W-w-wah ai k-k-kee T-Tanglin H-h-halt!"And again, the bus driver slapped him.
Ah Seng fled in tears and told his mother, who was quickly incensed.
The next day, Ah Seng's mother followed him on board the bus. True enough, it was the same bus driver."Why you hit my son?" she scolded the bus driver.
The driver scowled and retorted: "S-s-si n-n-noong kia, t-t-tup pai j-j-ji seow wah! (Bloody kid, keeps disturbing me!)"
-5:36 PM
Random#3
Dr. Quek made a routine house call to Mr. Lim, one of his elderly patients.
He asks, "And how are you doing today, Mr. Lim?"
Mr. Lim replies, "I feel just fine, doc. But you know, it's the strangest thing. Every night when I get up to pang jio, the bathroom light goes on for me automatically when I open the door!"
The doctor is worried that the old man is getting senile, so he phones the man's son, and the son's wife answers.
The doctor tells her, "Mrs. Lim, I'm a little concerned about your father-in-law. It seems that when he gets up to urinate at night and opens the bathroom door, the light somehow goes on..."
At which point, Mrs. Lim yells, "Ah Seng! Ah Pa is peeing in the refrigerator again!"
-5:27 PM
Random#2 : Say Cheese
Three dead bodies turn up at the mortuary, all with very big smiles on their faces. The coroner calls the police to show them what has happened. A Detective Inspector is sent and is taken to the first body
.'Clinton, 60, died of heart failure whilst in bed with his mistress. Hence the enormous smile, Inspector,' says the Coroner.
The DI is taken to the second dead man. 'Suharto, 70, made a pile from government funds, and spent it all on whiskey. Died of alcohol poisoning, hence the smile.'
Nothing unusual here', thinks the DI, and asks to be shown the last body.
Ah,' says the coroner. 'This is the most unusual one.
Dr. Mahathir, 75, struck by lightning.' 'Why is he smiling then?' inquires the Inspector.
To which the coroner replies, 'He thought he was having his picture taken.'
-5:25 PM
Random#1 : Sun Exploration
Four delegates from China, Russia, the United States and Malaysia attended the United Nations' Meeting. All the nations were discussing about space exploration by the year 2000. Here are some of the conversations:
China Delegate: 'By the year 2000, China will start their moon exploration project. '
Russian Delegate: ' We too, we are going to explore the moon. This time we will see to it that our cosmonauts will step on the moon.'
Bill Clinton: ' We the United States will also explore the moon for second time.'
Malaysian Delegate: 'By the year 2000, Malaysia will explore the sun.'There was a long silence,
Bill Clinton stood up and asked the Malaysia Delegate: ' Isn't it too hot to explore the sun?'
Malaysian Delegate (smiling): 'I had this thought out already. We will do it in the evening.'
Monday, October 23, 2006
-5:16 PM
Somethings that I never say, does not mean that it does not happen.
Just got fed-up with my dad. Once wake up see me use computer then scold me already. Please la, I finished 1 FYS for Chemistry already okay? It does not mean that when you sleep, I am also sleeping. Also, it certainly does not mean that when I'm online, I am not doing any work!
For God's sake, please look at the tremendous workload that I face. Do you even understand what I am going through now? I am so stressed! I don't show it on my damn face does not mean that I am not going through pressure of any sort!
[I do work even on Sundays too!]
-1:27 AM
Illusion Street Jam Final
Sunday, October 22, 2006
-5:01 PM
#RANDOM1
Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson went camping. In the middle of the night they both awoke and were staring up at the night sky. Holmes said, "Watson, look up into the sky and tell me what you see."
Watson said, "I see thousands and thousands of stars." Holmes: "And what does that tell you?"
Watson: "Astronomically, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Theologically, it tells me that God is great and that we are small and insignificant. Meteorologically, it tells me that we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What does it tell you?"
Holmes: "Somebody stole our tent."
-4:57 PM
#PUN2
There has long been a rumor that W. R. Grace Co. was going to buy the Fuller Brush Co. and Mary Kay Cosmetics and then merge with the Hale Business Systems. This would result in the new mega-corporate entity known as . . . "Hale Mary Fuller Grace."
-4:54 PM
#PUN
Old King Cole was very fond of the new cabbage salad his chef invented. In fact, he wanted the whole kingdom to share in his pleasure. Therefore, he sent out a decree that whenever anyone ate cabbage, it must be shredded and mixed with mayonnaise and bits of carrots. This is known today as Cole's Law.
-2:10 PM
Did Chemistry today - November 03, 04, other school paper * 1
Result : Realised that I have a long way to go for electrolysis [my weakest factor]
Can I finish my revision before O's?
Saturday, October 21, 2006
-4:20 PM
I'm so tired. Spent one morning wasting time in school - Mock English Paper and Social Studies. Social studies I was so lost as I did not know what was going on, hence wasted time there.
Doing Chemistry now. Time is short. Days are drawing closer. Less than 2 weeks left. How?
Thursday, October 19, 2006
-12:43 PM
Unproductive/Productive? [READERS DECIDE!]
Amath P1 , P2
Physics P1
Well, I am tired out after doing work in school. Changed company today to check out the new environment. Not much of a different, I would say. I guess mugging on my own has more room for me to blast the exam papers rather than doing in a group. So it's an early day for me tomorrow :)
Another thing, I am being more and more nocturnal now. I am sleeping in the day, and awake at night! This is one weird phenomena... Can I revise this process in time for my O's so that I will not be snoring in my papers?
Anderson Amath P2 - dead. Spent well over an hour doing nonsense with that connected rate of change question. Strangely, I remembered seeing something like that before. Somehow, I just could not seem to solve it. Prehaps it is due to the fact that I'm out of practice? Or maybe the paper is just plain hard?
I don't know. I just don't know.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
-8:35 AM
Had lessons in school today - BORING. Went with Roy, Weizhong, and Zhou Wei to Bishan library to mug. [Not my choice though] It was a much quiet environment. Well, some comical things happened.
The 2 students in front of me were joking around. One of them pointed out that I looked grim. [Actually, I was frowning over that Chemistry question] Then they decided that they should shut up. I looked up. One of them went , "Anger management man! Chill!". I went , "huh?" Then we all laughed.
2nd thing. Roy turned into the ladies on his way to the toilet! That look on his face was simply unforgettable! [er, for now at least]
Back to sleep for me. I am so tired.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
-3:26 PM
Super unproductive - did only Emath p1, p2 and read up on Chem.
This leads me to say - STUDY BREAK OR STUDY BRAKE?
School was quite a waste of time. I was kind of dragged into Geography lesson though I am not involved -.- [Boos]. Wasted my time since Mrs G sporting topics. I am not doing PLATE TECTONICS [maybe I would if I have extra time]. So much for that.
English was no better. FOR 1 COMMA AND 2 MISSING WORDS AND NOTHING ELSE , MY 'LANGUAGE' COMPONENT FOR SITUATIONAL ESSAY BARELY PASSED! Dang. Language 11/20 ? NO WONDER SO MANY PEOPLE FLUNK ENGLISH LA.
Dammit. Ended up with 16/30 for situational - She wasn't very kind with my 'task fulfillment' section as wel.
Yawns.
Will be doing Amath [if I can still stay awake] Tired and all. There's lessons in school tomorrow still [Physics practical revision].
Hmm. Breakfast at Macs or school canteen?
Monday, October 16, 2006
-3:34 PM
Mathematic puns are the first sine of madness (Johann Von Haupkoph)
Lol. Random find when surfing the web.
Church was generally, fine. Pastor Aaron's birthday today, so we gave him a surprise at his office! Imagine that stunned look on his face see some 40 odd youths gathered in his office! That must be REAL SWEET on the ORGANISER'S PART to come up with this!
Real tired [took 2 panadol with 3 hours interval last night]. Zonked out. Was greeted with 5 sms-es when I woke up. Cheery ain't it?
Sunday, October 15, 2006
-12:37 PM
Visited A, N, AC
Original plan was to get to A -> C -> AC [NO RELATIONS TO VECTORS!] Then somehow, I took bus 852, then bypassed CJ , and convieniently went to NJ. [SRY VIC!].
AJ was kinda drab. First thing that greeted me was, "Are you two from Cat High?". I was kind of amused that people can make me out to be someone from Cat High. Then the person said, "You got that Cat High look..." . Is it something good? The guide was okay. Engaging and all. However, he criticised SAJC, which puts me and Nick off. Then he made things worse when he said, "Who in the right sense of mind would go into ARTS STREAM?" Disgusted. Left 1 hour later and headed for C, but ended up at N.
Malu-ed myself when i said "Why NJ open house gate locked one?". Nick went.. "coz you are at the wrong gate?!" [NJ and NYGH gate side by side one -.-] The place was great. Lost myself in it, until 2 tour guides offered to take us around [Ushers turned tour guides]. Nice people, real friendly, contrasted with the AJ people. Met Terry and Jing Cheng there also, and bunches of Cat High guys too. Hmm.. their cutoff this year is 6 [sci] ,7 [arts] . So Nick was so impressed with the guides, the facilities, and the school compound itself, that he wanna go there for his first 3 months. [Btw, he got 7 -2 = 5]
I barely scraped the sci grade after counting bonus points. -.-
Went AC the last. The first school without a goodie bag. [I so greedy huh?] The compound was HUGE. Literally. Swimming pool and all. The main school buiding is like 7 floors high? Jun Yang said that it was like an office building. I thought that it looked like a hotel. Nick thought that the 2nd floor looked like the expo! We got lost because the guided tours only take place once every 2 hours. The winding routes led me and Nick to the viewing gallery, where the asthetics groups were performing. Was that Colleen in the choir? Got 'picked up' and joined a guided tour. The guide was really trained. It was a stark contrast with the people from AJ. The guides were friendly and all, but the other people on the tour weren't. They put on that "xiao jie" or "shao ye" attitude during the group. They must have come from filthy rich families. The "shao-ye-s" commented that the track was a tad too old for their taste. Haughty people who complained under their breaths. [IMAGINE A WHOLE SCHOOL OF DRACO MALFOYS RUNNING ABOUT COMPLAINING!] I bet they have momma-chauffers, papa-chauffers, or even personal-chauffers.
IMHO, the school was beautiful. Really! [Compare with Cat High!]
Probably Xuyun was right when he said that AC and MG people are so rich, they use the green note [$5 notes] as toilet papers...
With my current score, I am bound for nowhere. On that train to an unknown destination...
Saturday, October 14, 2006
-12:46 PM
Today was really a nice day [other than that mini-incident]
Received english results
Visited RJ's open house for the fun of it. Man, the place is huge.
The main highlight - meeting up with an old friend.
Jonathan Koh has just ended school, so I called him to join me, and probably tell me more about his campus [future campus - he's at RI now] . Well, you know Jon, you have never stopped encouraging me since we parted ways at primary 6. I know that promise made long ago. Yes dude, I still remember it. It seemed like a dream so far away, miles away from my grasp. I am trying, but falling short altogether. No doubt I want to keep that promise I've made, but I am so afraid to fail, to fail altogether.
I'm am truly inspired by your words today, and probably I will take it with me as I step into the examination hall this November. I am like, so psyched up! I am so touched by you remembering that promise we've made [4 years back] , and not losing that faith in me to do well and excel. I am really touched inside [though I did not show it]. Dude, if there's one friend that I can totally fall back on... it has to be you.
I will try my utmost best. If time permits for my revision ; if God permits me wisdom ; if I permit myself sanity, I will see you there. Till then brother, we meet.
Friday, October 13, 2006
-6:15 PM
# Song pick for this week [kinda late though]
Graduation (Friends forever) - Vitamin C
Here without you - Three Doors Down
That thing you do - The Wonders
Skaterboy - Avril Lagine
Bye Bye Bye - Nsync
Girl next door - Saving Jane
Invisible - Clay Aiken
Pick it up - Planet Shakers
Men in Black 2 (Theme song) - Will Smith
Accidentally in love- Casting crowns
-4:27 PM
Graduation - Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soonAnd there was me and you And then we got real cool Stay at home talking on the telephone with me We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
1 - As we go onWe remember All the times weHad together And as our lives change Come whatever We will still be Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
Repeat 1
La, la, la, la? Yeah, yeah, yeah La, la, la, la? We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this townI keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Repeat 1 (3x)
Sobs. I really miss this class. All the joy, the fun, the laughter, the fellowship. Everything about it. It draws to a close too soon, literally. Take care...
-2:28 AM
for milkk : my desktop + worktable!
-1:38 AM
jun yang [and his heartx]
-1:38 AM
the broomstick trio
-1:38 AM
Jing Cheng singing [unbrella + broomstick]
-1:38 AM
Jing Cheng
-1:37 AM
Memories of 4-10
-1:32 AM
Memories of 4-10
-1:29 AM
Memories of 4-10
-1:27 AM
Memories of 4-10
-1:23 AM
Roy Ang
-1:23 AM
Wrestles him~
-1:23 AM
George and Andre trying to kiss Nick Leong
Thursday, October 12, 2006
-4:54 PM
1.54am - in the dead of the night
Tired. Looked through Physics notes.
-6:40 AM
Today is another long and boring day.
Went through DHS Amath paper 1 & 2. Well, I umm spent math lesson doing something more constructive - Doing Physics! [lol] That was the 7-8 COMPULSORY-FOR-ALL morning lesson. [notice stress in "COMPULSORY-FOR-ALL"] I would not have gone for it if I had a choice.
Geography was spent going through agriculture and industries. Long and dry topics, if you'd ask me. Industries is more fun, and easier, compared to agriculture. All those terms such as "subsistence farming", "commercial farming", never got into my head at all. Maybe that is a reason why I'm not doing agriculture for O's.
Math period again. Spent it doing more Physics. Can't sit around idling. [Imagine 50 minutes of free time]. I would rather go to the auditorium and chiong paper practice instead of hearing her yak and yak.
The atom bomb fell on me during Chinese lession today. Stacks and piles of other school papers were dumped onto us. Sighs. That's a REAL horror story! I can't imagine me sitting down and doing those papers! Oh wells, there are some things you have to let go of in life.
Tired, so did not remain with the group today for revision.
SOME FAGS WERE MAKING FUN OF MY GREEN SHORTS AT J8. SCUMBAGS!
-Will come online later tonight-
Mrs Bala said, "This period of time, whatever practice you have, just do it. Even if it makes you puke, even you want to vomit blood, just do it." ~
Yesterday was also a boring day.
Probably Chemistry was the only lively lesson when I got to do practice papers. English.. hmm... the daily practice papers have made me immune to that HORRENDOUS work. Chinese lesson, was spent doing DHS Amath paper2 [lol!], and math lesson was spent.. umm.. daydreaming. I was just stoning and staring out into blank space.
What was really happening was the events AFTER SCHOOL.
Mugged in the school library. Nice place, with a quiet atmosphrere [OH REALLY?], and the coolness of the air con [yeah!]. I suggested that place to N because it was a really warm day, and I do not want to end up sweaty and sticky at the grandstand.
Felt quite accomplished.
Completed : Chem [DHS paper2] , O'lvl Emath p2 [June 06], Physics MCQ[Guangyang] in <4hours>regaining my touch when I finished Emath p2 in 40 mins.
The slacky librarian wanted to leave at 5pm, so we were shoo-ed out of the room. Aw. That's mean of her! Went grandstand after all. Stayed till 6. Real drained.
Went home and SUPPOSSEDLY TOOK A NAP, which turned into my sleep. Woke up at 6.. and that's where my day began...
-2:25 AM
for faith, who wants to see my handwriting - something like this usually :)
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
-7:33 PM
blanket. [lost for words]
-7:33 PM
sunset form my window!
-7:31 PM
you can win me [yan qi]
-7:31 PM
andre.. don't know what he's up to
-7:31 PM
messy! wanted to save paper [lol]
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
-1:58 PM
School was boring.
TSC pms-ed during lesson again. I'm beginning to get real used to it. Well, just blame it on the disfunction of her natural 'process' that led to such 'happenings' so often . I know, I know, I am really blunt and bad here, but I really hate people who shout WITHOUT TAKING NOTE OF HOW SHRILL THEIR VOICE SOUND! [Think Saras]
Stupid math department - DHS Emath paper 1 and 2. That will take 4.5 hours off my time. [Pretty heavy on my already heavy timetable] However, due to my slack attitude towards Emath, I convieniently skipped those "sketch a diagram of.." and "draw the graph of y = ..." for paper 2, saving me quite some time, which was put to more constructive use - Chemistry!
- Finished both papers in <>was really slacky. Damn! The library closed at 5pm today, kind of early. Well, ended up at the grandstand. The weather was warmer, and more humid, much to my disgust. [I hate getting sweaty and sticky]
So tired, and worn out. Met Clarence and Boon Khai, who were roaming the school, for some unknown reason.. [I wonder].. Well, looks like some people aren't suited for studying in school with all its distractions. [Like WZ] I was like that for the first few times, but got more disciplined and concentration power increased. So, wells...
~
And yes, Tzet :
Ammonium Nitrate + Calcium Carbonate = ok [CaCO only inc. pH of soil to 7] Ammonium Nitrate + Calcium Hydroxide = no-no [neutralisation!]
*Lets mourn for his 'wrecked' Chemistry guidebook -.-
~
It fills my mind; it is so overpowering - mixed emotions at one time?
Monday, October 09, 2006
-11:25 PM
From Far [small?]
-11:20 PM
Up Close [lol?]
-11:19 PM
Jing Cheng's artwork
-12:30 PM
Church was rather interesting. Talk on homosexuality. Kind of controversal, if you'd ask me. It was rather random too. Was laughing alot when the pastor was talking about an incident when he was touched by a homo. That sounded really hilarious. [Reminds me of nick leong and andre kua]
Small group. Discussed about the sermon itself, which turned into somewhat a joking session. Man, I just cannot keep a straight face about these kind of things, after having seen it first-hand in class itself. [You know who...]
I see Kit Kat struggling under the weight of his work ; I see Cal chiong-ing his bio papers ; and Mr N and his math homework - Can't help but wonder if I had been doing any work at all. I seemed far too free, too free at this point of time...
Why so?
Is it that I do things fast, or am I missing out homework?
So much ground to cover, too little time. How?
-I have always thought that I am smart, until my results me proved otherwise-
Sunday, October 08, 2006
-1:45 PM
Spent much of my time in dream land.
Still so tired and all.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
-3:34 PM
Tired.
Lesson was tedious today. Went through summary during Chinese lesson. That is boring, literally. Ended up messaging Kang Wei [who was on his way to school] and Wai Chuan [2 seats away from me]. Now I finally realised the importance of bluetooth messengers.
English was spent writing an essay. That was complete smaller-than-normal handwriting. Guess I will post it on Monday when I get my memory stick back from Brandan. Haha. Sry Faith :P
N , you think I'm behaving like a communist? Lol. I'm not. Hope you've realised, that this is mere pragmatism, and you've probably saw my reason for such an action.
Stank like a pig.
The haze is getting really bad. The library was filled today, so had to remain at the grandstand with the group. Stayed till 7pm. By then, it was really foggy. Visibility was bad, really bad. The air smelt like ashes. Kind of reminds me of the Chinese Ghost Festival where the joss papers are burnt.
Reached home at 8pm. Slept on the bus. Did I snore? It was really nice that i snapped awake just at my stop. Coincidence?
Fruitful time spent in school semi-conductively.
The grandstand was really quiet. By 4.30pm, the place has a deadened atmosphere. Sitting there would be Uzzy, Yi Cong, me and the group. The noisy sec3's have left after a while. After all, Ms TSW has left school early, and they could not find much reason to hang around doing nothing.
That was a good time spent there though. Covered 1/2 of the MCQ for "identification of ions and gases", completed "transformers and C.R.O" in Physics Working [which draws the relationship between me and that book to an abrupt end], checked answers for "DHS Chemistry p1", and obtained another dose of Physics paper from Steven Quay, who seemed e-x-t-r-e-m-e-l-y tired after a day of teaching, and screaming?
If only he know that we are more tired than he is.
Malu-ed myself. Mixed up "polynomials" and "polymers", and told Wei Zhong to draw that ester in a "polynomial" form to simplify matters. I guess it adds just another question mark onto his head.
Lol.
The math department is really getting onto everyone's nerves. Frankly, I would wish for their depart - ment . A math paper every day? A full set on weekends?! That is just too much, even for me who do them with that speed. It takes too much of my time, and too much of my sanity getting the darn papers done. I feel that the math department should not be that pressuring on the students in terms of the workload.
Slap the math department.
And oh, did I mention that that old hag in the room was really noisy. Kept bugging me about the fact that "YOU CANNOT DIVIDE AN UNKNOWN". Relax la. This is what I call, "manipulation". Come on, if I cannot divide by an unknown, how am I going to solve that question?
Her method of solving questions... not my kind. Who would take the long route when they can take a shortcut. "SHOW FULL WORKING?!" That has hardly occured to me, until now, at least. Boos to that old-fashioned granny.
I'd call that pit-stops.
[Yesterday] Hmm. Tried solving Calvin's question on number patterns. Lazy to use : an^2 + bn + c method, so "comvieniently" used the so-called "integration" method to get my answer faster [Calvin, C is still a variable]. It is probably due to the fact that I integrate faster than I could solve simultaneous?
Ms Tan said that it's alright, as long as I am able to get the anwser. [However, I may use that method, but gonna rub of workings to play safe. C = (variable in terms of n) is a big NO-NO!]
So much for that.
God is a God of miracles. Just when I was fretting on my grades, I have to write an essay- "a degree is the best way to judge one's success in life. What are your views?". This is the worst moment I have had, writing things that so contradict the perspectives I have, compromising on my own points, to bring out a correct answer.
God is marvellous.
It is getting real dark now. Shall go do my work now. Must cram all that my brain can store [Not that it can store much info!]. All those late nights making me look so much more haggard [Not that I had looks, but imagine what happens if I lose that whatever little looks I've had!] I estimated that it would take me the whole Saturday to slug my work out.
~X I desire the strengthening, I seek perfection X~
-3:30 PM
MR QUAY'S CONTRIBUTION AT PRELIM3 Some people said that he did nothing, but here it is At a glance [Physics] :
- Mr Tan PH : Practical exam - Mrs Chung LS and Mr S Ong : Main paper
- Mr S Quay KK : Brings the OAS to the machine -.-
Friday, October 06, 2006
-2:04 PM
Tired.
The group is formed. Let's all hope that all will be fine, that we strive for our aspirartions, and obtain our dream scores.
*Remember the deadline people! We don't have much time left!*
Somehow, I feel slacky. Don't feel like doing any work. The library was packed, with meetings and all, so had to use an open-air area, where I was affected by the haze. It was really foggy, and I felt my throat went dry. So much for that.
I need to clear Physics by this week.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
-1:31 PM
I am losing my touch - finished amath paper1 in 1hour.
Keep practicing, keep fighting on, keep pushing, pressing on.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
-1:50 PM
Tired.
Slept on the bus?
Collasped on my bed at 9.30pm.
Woke up... [recently?]
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
-4:33 PM
#Lame#
Grades -> reasonings
A = Eh Sai [okay] B = Buay Pai [not bad] C = Can la D = Die ka E = Enough bad orredi F = [nid i say?]
-4:23 PM
#LAME#
Ah Lian called Ah Beng over the telephone.
Lian: " Beng, I can't get my new jig saw puzzle fixed, mah-chiam all the edges cannot fix together, leh."
Beng: " Jig saw puzzle si mi picture, ha?"
Lian: " The box show a big rooster, kanna like the one in talkingcock.com ".
Beng: "Okay, lah, okay, lah. I come over to hepchu, lah."
Ah Beng arrives at Ah Lian's place, where she happily leads him to the kitchen table where the jigsaw puzzle is. Ah Beng examines the puzzle and says, " Kan ni na, put back the corn flakes into the box, lah."
-12:15 PM
Bad day at school
Cut my arm when it scraped against the toilet doors' hinges
Tripped and fell because I missed a step
Earpiece spoilt
Did little work at group study
Spent all my money in my wallet
Backache
Flunked prelims
Can't enter dream jc
Mixed feelings + mood swings [PMS]
Anguish and depression
If anyone wants to know my prelim scores, find me on msn. Not planning to reveal here.
*DISCLAIMER* -> Subject to mood
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Cal , when will you ever understand? 2 years as friends , its so surprising that you know little of me though you seem to know quite a lot. It is not something new that I would lament on my results. Haven't I been doing that for some time already? Wai Kit is equally disappointed, if not more than me. Don't get us wrong. We are equally angry for not meeting our targets and all, and I believe that you feel the same way also. It makes me feel worse that I pissed you off with my lamentings and all. No doubt this is the darkest era of our lives, a shadowing of dawn. But even so, i hope this note covers the whole incident from me and Wai Kit's perspective :
Firstly, I would say that I am over-ambitious. I think that many, if not all would agree with me on that very point. I always aim for the impractical, the impossible, and suffer as a result. This is just another mere incidence when I stumble. I set high goals, hence I would be upset time and over again when I fail to meet it.
Secondly, I am trying to be an over-achiever. I try to do things out of my limit and press myself to do so. Falling into disappointment is just a sub-effect of it. I strive for the maximum, and work like mad for it. Hence, I do expect quite a lot out of it, and this time, utterly disappointed.
Thirdly, I have no contentment. I am hardly satisfied with anything. I hold this belief that I can make things better, improve on it, and get a better end result. It is no surprise that I am disappointed this time round.
I do hope from this that you can understand me better.
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Monday, October 02, 2006
-2:40 PM
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Tired.
Sermon. Umm, zoned out? Another sermon which I found to be repeated.
Sg finishing on book of James already. Some of us wanted to do Revelations next. Well, no comments on it, except for the fact that I'm for Revelations.
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Talked to Rachel and Nian Long after church today. It was really random. Haha. Small world huh? Jing Cheng's my friend, his brother is Nian Long, then Rachel is his girlfriend, and Rachel was my sgl when I was in lower sec. Cool huh?
Feels so much like friendster.
Was sharing about school life, and the things which took place in class. The events, the suanings and all. Haha. And I didn't know that mass was made compulsory for all students last time!
Winds of change..
However, somethings just stay. The old caretaker still chases people out at 6+ pm daily.. Hmm..
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Left with 3 chapters for Physics Workout [Static electricity, EMI, Transformers and CRO]. I guess its time I get done and over with the book, considering the number of people who have actually completed it.
I will be starting Chemistry tomorrow. Humanities will be done in the study break. Hopefully I can get things right.
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My spiritual life is kind of stagnant. Stuck at book of Isaiah.
D Lim just messaged me that there would be fellowship during recess tomorrow.
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Sunday, October 01, 2006
-11:50 PM
AARGH
-3:41 PM
Did nothing much today.
Physics, and amath homework.
* Imagine this, Ah Tan tearing her hair when people do not do homework.
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Well, I am more than nocturnal now. I slept at 4am on Friday morning?
Well, this goes to show how I am becoming active at night, but more doozy-woozy in the day.
Good or bad?
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O's are like taking injections - you don't like it, but you don't have a choice.
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L1r5? I will count only after modded scores out. Now its still to early to say, given my 2 borderline cases. Somehow, I have a bad feeling about Chem.
