rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
-9:54 AM
these few days i haf been very tired..and bored..planning to do my christmas shoppping real soon..haha..lolx
Thursday, November 24, 2005
-2:00 AM
yesterday waz so fun.. one camp gathering..haha..it was at marina square. we played bowling,arcade n lan. too bad some ppl cannot join us..looking 4ward to e next 1..haha..it was quite fun and tiring..haha..
new record!!Since the start of the dec hols, i haf played <2hrs of com games at home..tats so sad :( plan to plae more lahh//
Monday, November 21, 2005
-10:00 AM
Time to do my shopping..
Wishlist1) Ipod 30GB
2) 5mp digital camera
4) candy
5) chocolate
the list seems endless..
muz remember to plan the outing for the sunday sch on the 4th of december..planned to go to pasir ris beach and haf fun..(no dunking tho)..
-card games(indian poker?)
-v ball
-cycling??
http://www.rbc.org/rtb/ - y we shld b christians
thats all for ya folks..haha
-9:00 AM
Sorry..this may be an anti-climax for mi blog,since so many fun things happened
This is the
W-O-R-S-T day...more bad things happpened than good ones.
good stuffPlanning to go for ltc(leadership trainship camp) in dec
Playing c.chess wif nick
Going to church
Bad stuff-i noe this is beginning to sound like lamentations..but it still haf 2 b told..
-got scolded by my parents when i wanted to buy some new tech toys..
-argued wif them abt my exam results (its not my fault that i am doing badly)
"actually i got pox be4 the final yr exams, therefore i missed 2 weeks of school. i returned to school juz in time to take exams the following day. i was totally nervous. My results r not up to standard.My parents sae they wun compare results but always carry on comparing, saying that i will b a sch dropout.actually i feel damn insulted because i am sick, under medication for mi eng and cl paper (i requested for shorter mc) thus unable to do well. i was tired out during the tests, but my parents do not understand, they juz look at my results and scolded me whenever i wanted to buy something. this is utter unfairness, coz i din fail anything, only not doing well. i was expecting a pass, however, since i had missed so many days of school at home. them my parents come crapping that i shld haf studied at home and stuff like tat..my point is that when i got pox, i was scratching all over, and unable to concentrate.they ignored that reason, and sc0lded me.."
-my bro wrecked mi guitar (it was not even 2 weeks old)..my parents not letting me get a new one..the paint is peeling off..(mi bro whacked it against the wall..got scraped)..now the main sound box is cracked..wif chips and dents. was hoping to get a new one.my parents (as usual) din allow me.iz tat mi fault that i spoilt it?
Saturday, November 19, 2005
-10:51 PM
FOOTPRINTS
One night I had a dream.
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with God.
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonged to me, the other to God.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned God about it.
"God, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I noticed that during the most troublesome time
in my life there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why in the times when I needed you most,
you would leave me."
God replied.
"My precious precious child, I love you and
I would never never leave you
during your times of trials and suffering.
When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you."
-2:20 PM
don't they both look alike?
-1:57 PM
dinner for the 1st nite(bbq)
-1:56 PM
our nice and cozy bunk
-1:56 PM
slacking
-1:56 PM
??jeremy and ??
-1:56 PM
joshua from our group
-1:56 PM
"scenic view" of the city
-1:55 PM
they can't see me, can't they?
-1:55 PM
grp 3 4eva..
-7:30 AM
Myselfi am back from camp alreadi arh..sooooo fun there..the ppl are quite friendly and nice 1 lorz..haha..enjoyed myself there lahh..//
Day 11st day was the most memorable one..early in e morning i knoew no one there..except ppl from the same church of course.we got to run all over sentosa on a treasure hunt, where we haf 2 fin dsome items yet manage to complete some stations on the way as well.tats when i got to konw mi grp ppl better lah.thats was funny how we got the 50cm l0ng hair..lol..besides, we had a bbq at night larh..that was kind of funny coz we had problems starting the fire..and it took very long..tats all..we were so tired..we slept the moment we hit the pillow..zzzz//
Day 2i woke up early in the morning,nearly waking everyone up in the bunk as well..i went to took a shower..so cold..oh well..
later in the day we had some games and stuff like that lah..we made a kite (which only flew for a while before falling :(
later we had some games where each group haf 2 compete against each other..these ganes got twist 1 ah..somewhat more "fun"..for captain's ball we used a mud-filled sponge *yucks* the mud was splashing on everyone when we were throwing it around (lucky i keeper!!)
we also got ultimate frisbee (need i explain?!)..other than that we also got human football..juz like the "satay machine" in the arcade..last but not least we got some wierd game (name unknown), where one (blindfolded) has to put a balloon into a hoop juz by listening to the sound of the bells..
at night we got quizzes which we were all enjoying ourselves..i got a headache but still manages to remain there (a panadol extra does the magic!)
we got into a dispute (shan't elaborate) but cleared it up in the end..the scene at first seemed like a confrontation..(personally i tink its like the
Nuremberg War Trials, got tension and all) we all got that guilty look on our faces and stared blankly into empty space..
after that we go and play cards wif others..and thats all//
what i feeli tink that the games are very intensive,where each team are striving to win..therefore there is always tension and distrust between the different groups (expected). In the process of trying to ascend above the rest, we have overlooked our own behavoiurs, and are beginning to be unlike ourselves,hurting the "innocents" and causing friendship ties to suffer. i feel that such things should not be overlooked (even tho i did), and should be taken into consideration next time to prevent such incidents from happening//
Day 3waah..it seems like camp is ending so fast.i guess time flies when we are really having fun.today we watched our behavious more..but still can't stop the tension between grp 3 and grp 4. some of our ppl haf that feeling too deeply etched in to be changed in such short time..(anybody can remember e argument on day 2?)..for mi its oer then let it pass lorz..no point to brood over such stuff lah (even tho i was still brooding over it?!)
we got sand sculpturing activities in e morning. bascically we haf to include as much of our members in the sculpture as possible. for our grp its the statue of liberty (i was e statue..haha) after our "sculpture" was graded, we took turns dunking each other in the sea (it was high tide then) wash up..go for lunch then return for more messy games..
we played tug or war at the beach, where there was a pool of sludge/slime on the mat.. ("aromatic" blend of rotten eggs,detergent,peanuts..etc)we didn't even lose a single round, which got e other team sticky and stinky..our "capture the flag" game was e best of all..our flag was our kite tied up onto a wooden pole.we formed an alliance where grp 1,2,3,4 wld nt attack each other..(secretly we planned to betray grp 4)..there was mad snatching of flags and stuff like that,but in the end our flag (grp 3) was still in 1 piece whereas e rest are in shreds. one group even got everything ripped off!(lol)..when i captured grp 1's flag from grp 5..i got so "deep" in to the game that i overturned grp 1's flag and dragged it..(guess wad happened?) it was no better than the rest when i am "done". haiz..muz ask for 4giveness lorz..
at night..it was the most meaningful of my 4-day camp..worship..be4 tat we got VOID to preform for us.. (they're quite off-key, increasing tempo when they not suppossed to..) thats beside the point.. worship that time got lots of people jumping around..(i was one of them too)
after woraship i watched "hitch" in the hall till 2 am plus..kept amos awake coz we wanted to wedgie him..he scared we sneak up on him and..after that i played cards wif Tomio and 'co until 5 am plus..slept at 5.30 am..//
4th daywoke up at 8am..terribly tired(like i am feeling now)..packed mi stuff..quite sad lah (good things dun usually last)..blogging now..zzz//
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
-1:55 PM
tmr is camp liao..haha..dun tin k i will be able to sleep well..always lyk tat one..packed my stuff..but forgot to get my toiletries..
quite scared tho..1st time going to a place where i noe vv few ppl..lolx
-1:07 PM
3 muskeeters
-1:06 PM
"illegal breaks"
-1:06 PM
brandon(as usual)
-1:05 PM
thats has got to hurt(andre kua)
-1:05 PM
yangz
-1:04 PM
hopskotch in class?!
Monday, November 14, 2005
-4:11 PM
3-10 ' 05 4eva
Sunday, November 13, 2005
-9:58 PM
Nice Stuffits been very long since i have time to update my blog..haha..christmas season is nearing and i can't wait to do my shopping (without my parents of course)..preferably at orchard road or plaza singapura..
i plan to buy these during christmas..
1) Panasonic DMC Fx8
2) Chocolates
3) Sweets..candy..
many many others..
looks like i will haf 2 patch up my wallet in january lorz..hehe..
why does it always seem so fun shopping?
church rawks..2dae got ppl talking about doing quiet time and stuff like that..quiet time is fun..2-way interaction wif god himself..i plan to get a deeper understanding of revelations(the most interesting yet the most uncomprehensible..lolx) i plan to read my bible every week...mayb more frequently..haha..
{Nick-the one from church- is one good chinese player..Muz challenge him more often}
Going to camp soon.muz pack..()haven't started..planning to start tmr morning..muz be very interesting..
also..church organising a camp in december..its in church..its free.and i bet its gonna be one of the best event dis yr..besides the christmas party..will b looking forward to it..
nt much progress in learning the guitar..muz work on it..
andrew may be coming out to singapore very soon...probably during e christmas period..
Bad stuffups and downs..keep getting scolded my my mum coz she didn't want me to buy a camera..she sae use the one at home can liao..YUCKS!!dats disgusting...(one antique film one and a DV camcorder)..thats really not my kind...haiz..gotta find a way to get one..i got enough savings..iz tat they dun allow lorz..
btw my ps2 is beginning to collect dust..i can only use it twice a yr..june and december hols..i think that a psp will be better for me..i can hardly play at home..my mum giving excuses not to let me play the computer..i want to play more often..
i wld like to go out more often..but always got kept at home..sigh..since i want to buy harry potter-the half blood prince..and probably watch e movie
Monday, November 07, 2005
-2:53 PM
yawn...lazy monday morning..ulcer still giving mi probs as usual..3 days already..hope can recover..
sunday sch on 4th december is going to be very interesting..haha..may b having a grp outing..looking forward to it..
btw..application for one camp 2005 is accepted..yay! muz start packing by the end of this week..
Friday, November 04, 2005
-2:10 PM
havent been blogging lately..lol..exams juz over..esp e o levels..stress all gone..haha.you should have seen the look on the d.m's face when he saw us (the sec 3) yelling and runnung out of the exam hall.that was good..
holidays quite slack,so go out wif frens lor..holidays are a time for slacking rite?i doing math tys occasionally,and started learning guitar using online help..i will be getting a chord book soon..the guitar strings are cutting my fingers..(ouch?)now i have 3 swollen fingers..which makes writing kind of hard..haiz..brb
