rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
-11:01 PM
1000th entry - bittersweet
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before i close down this blog with this post, i would like to thank all my readers who have been reading my entries from the time this blog began when i was in sec 3, till now, the end of jc2. it's been 4 long years...
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Today also marks the end of my 1year+ relationship. It was a short one, and it is ultimately my fault that I choose not to treasure things and make the best out of it. I am terribly sorry for this...I was the one who wanted out...
Recollecting the happy moments we've had :
- Dinner at Marche - that was during your birthday in january. That was the first time i brought you out for a meal and all...
- how i cycled over to your place at times when i needed to keep fit
- the times when we went out together
- How you celebrated my birthday with a surprise...
and much more...
I am really not in the right mood , nor in the right frame of mind to blog anymore. It has come to this point where I really find it difficult to pen down the next word, the next phrase. Forgive me, for this sloppy ending.
I must go... to somewhere where I will be alone...where only God knows...
Sunday, November 16, 2008
-12:17 AM
"Deck the halls with boughs of holly,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Tis the season to be jolly,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Don we now our gay apparel,
Fa la la, la la la, la la la.
Troll the ancient Yule tide carol,
Fa la la la la, la la la la."
-Deck the Halls
(this is a pic of the lights taken at marina sq!)
I am just feeling more merrier. Guess the xmas spirit is coming to me!
#random : someone just made me sing a song over the phone. bleah~ super embarassing!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
-10:28 PM
Yesterday and today, were probably the MOST HAPPENING days of my entire exam season.
yesterdayreached school at 7am as usual, and sat down with the canoeists - chunmun, cheewee, and friend ( sorry keep forgetting your name! ). Talked about rawwr-bish as usual about com games and anime. Everyone was feeling super sian-diao-ed about the killer econs paper the previous day. For me, I was had that phrase "dumping bras" stuck in my head :/ I bet this super rubishy phrase is put in to make candidates laugh and lose focus...
Went to the library, and started studying with Kelvin(TheMaktab). Everyone's stressed , since Cambridge hasn't been very kind with our subjects this year, of which, chem is one of the killer papers. Helped him out a little for chem, and managed to finish the HCI paper for chemistry. It wasn't easy, and considering that I got a decent score, I felt that I should be prepared for the Chemistry MCQ paper in the afternoon.
Q : how hard could an mcq paper get?
A : VERY HARDThe questions, were MIND-BLASTING (inside joke) and I felt that I was totally owned by the paper. Like totally. So much for hoping for easy papers...
Left school in a hurry to meet up with Clarence... So we went to the SSDC to book a test date for the BTT. Thanks to my poor sense of direction, I got both of us lost and we ended up wandering in the industrial park. Zzz. We finally reached the place , like 23483954903 years later, only to find that their systems are down and I have to return another day. (-.-)"
Rushed down to City Hall to meet XuYun. I was late, and hence that poor guy was waiting outside the Aldephi for me... ( if you're reading this ) sorry dude! It was a Friday night, so Jaben was practically packed. Managed to meet up with a CHS senior, and did some catching up with him. ( Forgot his name too, see i got STM ) Got my foam and silicon tips, before leaving to walk around at Marina Square. The place there is just.. perfect! It was fully of the Christmas spirit! The decorations were... simply, WOAH! Xmas musics were blasting, and it was just the right atmosphere. What a change from the monotony of school and the exam hall! Walked down Singapore River and catch our bus home there. Talked more crap, and ended up dozing off on the bus home...
todayWoke up at 0730am today, meaning that I had a serious lack of sleep. Thereafter, I went down to SSDC with Nick Lim. As usual, I had a punctuality problem and I was 1 hour late. Speaking of punctuality...sad to say that in the morning, my punctuality just...SUCKS. There was a friendly instructor there who went through with us what we were to expect in the course ( in other words, brainwashing us to mug for BTT with the school... ) . After much waiting, I finally got my test date done for my BTT. Hopefully I can get through that one!
Went down to Plaza Singapura with Nick later, because he wanted to look at keyboards ( the piano-type of keyboard, not the computer one ) . Walked around a little, and I was looking out for prom clothes. There was an offer of 20% at some stall in the basement. Tempting! Mhmm... But never got anything because I guess I would get it the next time, at a date closer to prom.
Went down th RJ to mug as usual. Today the turnout was pretty bad. There was only me , WaiChuan, and EdmundT. Supposed to swim today, but unfortunately Zombie (WeiZ) was sick, so I brought my swimming gear for nothing... Finished one prelim paper for physics before leaving to join my class people. Guess the mood to mug ain't there for now.
GASP!*I AM BURNING OUT!*
Physics. I seriously wonder how the paper would be like. I am sick of being placed on the chopping board, chopped, pieced back after that only to be chopped up again the next day...
#randomI am be becoming more vain. Help me.
That was probably almost ( if not all ) of the definitions for Chemistry :D
J8 is all decked and ready for the Xmas season!
-12:02 AM
pics to be uploaded soon...
i can't seem to get "silent night" out of my head :/
lalalala....
Thursday, November 13, 2008
-9:57 AM
"Ash like snow" by The Brilliant Green空 赤く
染める
黒檀の
闇飲み
込まれた
星屑たち
儚く
降り
積もる
灰の
雪見つめた
嘆きの
窓Ｉ ｎｅｖｅｒ ｄｒｅａｍｅｄ
凍りつく
ｔｈｅｒｅ．．． Ｉ ｃｏｍｅ ｆｏｒ ｙｏｕ
想いは
寂寞の
夜空に
舞い
上がり
砕けた
この
世界が
形を
変えるたびに
守りたいものを
壊してしまっていたんだ
心にひしめく
背徳の
闇君の
声が
麻酔のように
冷たく
感覚を
奪ってく
矛盾を
追いかけても
終わらない
なぜ
僕は
戦うの？
例えば
光が
消え
失せて
この
地球（ほし）が
堕ちても
忘れないよ
その
小さな
願いが
在るべき
場所へと
導く
ｔｈｅｒｅ Ｉ ｃｏｍｅ ｆｏｒ ｙｏｕ ｙｅａｈ
Ａｓｈ Ｌｉｋｅ Ｓｎｏｗ
ｉｓ ｆａｌｌｉｎｇ ｄｏｗｎ ｆｒｏｍ ｙｏｕｒ ｓｋｙ
Ａｓｈ Ｌｉｋｅ Ｓｎｏｗ
Ｌｅｔ ｍｅ ｈｅａｒ．．．
ｗｈｙ Ｉ ｈａｖｅ ｔｏ ｆｉｇｈｔ？
この
想いは
寂寞の
夜空に
舞い
上がり
砕けた
闇を
拓く
栄光と
引き
換えに
守るべきものを
失ってきた
（Ｉｔ’ｓ ｆａｌｌｉｎｇ ｆｒｏｍ ｙｏｕｒ ｓｋｙ）
虚しすぎる
（Ｂａｂｙ Ｉ ｃｏｍｅ ｆｏｒ ｙｏｕ）
砕け
散った
欠片に
傷つくたび
閉ざされた
僕の
心は
強くなる
事を
選んで
ここまで
来たんだ
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my favourite song to date =)
anyway, it's the gundam 00 season 1 2nd opening tune!
SEASON 2 IS OUT! TIME TO WATCH~~~
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
-5:56 PM
econs is over
literally
ROAD SWEEPING HERE I COME!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
-6:48 PM
today's papers are definitely killers
the transition metal question for chem
and EVERYTHING FOR ECONS
yupp, you're not seeing things
EVERYTHING FOR ECONS is GONE
literally coz the paper is super tough
gone-d
i shall resign to my fate of sweeping the streets...
Monday, November 10, 2008
-9:14 PM
last week was madness :
-crashing ruijie's econs consultation slot
that is simply, madness -> passing off as a student from rj
:)
